I am THANKful for Thanksgiving with my Family

I am so thankful that I was able to spend my Thanksgiving with family this year! Being that this may be my dads last thanksgiving :'( I am so thankful to spend the holiday with him! I am crossing my fingers that he makes it to Christmas, but thats hard to say. When my dad was orginally put on hospice in July he was told by his hospice nurse he only had 6 months to live with the chemotherapy.  Therefore that would mean my dad would make it until January.  That thought in my mind that my dad will be in heavan so soon frightens me.  I wish he didn't have this evil disease that is taking him away from his family so soon.

I am so thankful my dad was here for Paxton's first Thanksgiving!

Oh back to Thanksgiving...I had a great time! I got to see many of my cousins I hadn't seen in forever.  I love having such a big family it makes the holidays alot of fun!  This year for Thanksgiving Paxton was to small to eat a Thanksgiving dinner...but I did let him try his first mashed potatoes :)  He was really unsure about the potatoes and made funny faces it was dang pretty cute! Unfortanately I didnt take as many photos as I had hoped to take.  But here are a few of what I did take!

Dad

Paxton's Great Grandma (my grandma)

Turkey Day wore me out!

I Survived....Now its time for Decisions!!

Well its offical I have finally made it through 2 weeks back to work :) I am so proud of myself!! During those 2 weeks I had to work a full time shift, but starting Monday November 30th I switch down to part time and only work 5 hours a day! I am actually looking forward to it!! I have come to conclusion that Im ok with being back at work, it is a nice changing my life up. 


I think that if I quit my job long term I may go insane being at home all the time....and I dont think thats for me yet. I have plenty of time to make up my mind whether I want to stay with my employer or be a stay at home mom full time. But for right now I have decided I need the extra people- to- people interaction that I get when I go to work. 


Eventually I will be a fulltime stay at home mom, but I think I may end up staying with my employer longer than I orginally expected!  Needless to same Im fine with that! I love being around my son, but I need to make sure I have a little bit of "ME" time to myself each day, since I am a single parent!!

First Day Back to Work...

The aniexty all set in last night while I was trying to fall asleep...I remember laying down in bed at 9:30 and my mind running a million thoughts per minute. I toss and turn and focus on trying to fall asleep. I take a peak at my cellphone to see  its 11:30 and that I have been laying in bed thinking about my fears of going back to work for the first day the next morning. Of course I finally fell asleep but definitely didnt have a good night sleep.

Morning approaches; Paxton slept awesome all night long and its time for me to start my morning routine of getting ready again....UGH! As the clock gets closer to 7:30am I finally start shedding tears of leaving my little pride and joy for the first time. I tell myself "Brittany you as a single parent have to do this to finacially support yourself and your son".  I thought to myself I wish I lived in the olden days when the wives stayed at home and took care of their children, cooked, cleaned, and basically did all the chores....But in todays day an age more and more females are having to put their children in daycare to go back to work.

Anyways...I get to Auntie Amanda's house to drop off Paxton and she says to me "I remember when I had to drop Jayden off at daycare and how I sat out in my car a bawled my eyes out".  Then all the sudden I squeeze Paxton tightly and tears come pouring out of my eyes, as the reality sets in that I actually have to be away from my pride and joy for a full 8 hours :(  Im not gunna lie it was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.  But in the end I know its whats best for me and my son!

I totally appreciate the things Amanda does for me! She is awesome and I know she will always take good care of my son!! I love that I dont have to put my son in daycare, instead his auntie can watch over him :0)
Amanda is a blessing from heaven and I hope she knows that she means the world to myself and Paxton!

Brave Veteran's

This is my Dad from back in the day when he served his time in the military.

My dad and brother Josh. Josh is leaving for bootcamp.

Josh

My dad pinning a medal on his son(my brother) Josh

My brother Josh and Dad

In honor of Veterans Day yesterday I am blessed to know two very incredible men in my life that have served for our country. My dad and my brother Josh. My brother Josh is currently serving in the Army in Iraq at this time, and has 5 prior years with the Marine Corp. He is in my prayers everyday, as anything is bound to happen. Just 2 weeks ago my brother wrote my dad a letter stating what the conditions are over in Iraq. Not only that but they came up on a possible IUD, talk about scary. Myself as a sister and daughter to veterans makes me feel proud what my family has done for this country! Happy Veterans Day!!

Wordless Wednesday- Smiling at My Cousin

Cousins Keenan and Paxton!

(They are 2 months apart)

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Life As A Single Mama!

Wow has time flown by, my little precious baby boy is almost 4 months old! And I sure have learned how to find my way through the grapevine of single parenting and only had a few minor bumps along the way. I have enjoyed every single moment that I have gotten to spend with my little one. Now the real test is about to set in....Im going back to work next Monday after 4 months away from my job. Im not gunna lie I am absolutely terrified, and sad that I will be away from baby boy.

But we as parents have to support our children financially just to live a normal life.  At times I wish I wasn't a single mom, but I guess everything happens for a reason and I wouldn't have it any other way.  I love being a single mom and honestly I can't picture it any other way.  But it is hard when your the only one changing diapers, giving baths, feeding, playing, holding, comforting and every little thing your baby needs you for.  I do have to say the book "secrets of the baby whisper" that Amanda got me has really helped! I live by this book and its methods to help with raising my child.

All in all I have had great support from family to get me through the last 4 months as a single mom. And I absolutely thank all of them.  I dont know what I would do with out them.

So now its time for me to venture out into this world still as a single mama, and see how successful I can be!  I pray everyday that I only do whats best for my son, and deep down I know that I am trying my best.

Keenans Blessing

Last Sunday on 11/01/2009 I attended the Jacksonville Ward of the Later Day Saints of Jesus Christ Church with my family to be there in honor of my nephew Keenan to be blessed into the church.  This was the first time I have been back to church since I was a teenager. It was a very inspirational visit back to church and I am glad I was their to hear and watch my nephew be blessed into the church by his father!

Here is Keenan in his white suit after being blessed into the church, he was so dang cute!!